Sharing an excerpt from a year-old blog post of my son on "letting go" . . .
Bitaw 2011
Funny how the first thing I think of when I was writing the previous sentence was the song, "Love is like a magic penny. Hold on tight and you won't have any." but if you "lend it, spend it, give it away, it comes right back to you."
I've held on to a lot of things for far too long I guess. And 2011 was actually my chance to truly let go. But I didn't take that opportunity at all. Rather, I spent most of 2011 holding on to most things that I should have moved on from a long time ago.
And it's the same with love. Falling in and out of love for a couple of
years with practically the same person made me realize that maybe you
really just have to quit it sooner or later. There is such a thing as a
hopeless case, and this year, I've begun to accept that. I'm been in
withdrawal ever since, but I'm starting to get the hang of it. I am
really happy to have come to terms with it as well. Tsuruko, from the
anime Ano Hana, was right all along. "I love Yukiatsu, but Yukiatsu
would never choose me."
I learned this year about a lot of things about letting go that I think I am a stronger person coming into a new year. I've grown as a person who is able to let go finally. I can finally be at peace, not so much in giving up on the various attachments I have, but reminding myself that those attachments were a part of me, and they are still somewhere in my heart, but at this point, I can't let these things anchor me down. It's good to know where I've been, but that's not really a nice place to stay in.
Not just that, I felt like I'm starting to finally establish myself as the person I really want to be. I'm becoming more sure of myself as a theologian and as a teacher. I've also started a new hobby, cooking and baking (I do make a pretty mean rhum cake. And don't get me started about my Shepherd's Pie).
So I guess, all I can say to 2011 is... handa na ako bumitaw. Here's to letting go and letting God. Happy New Year and God Bless!
